Your love is strong..

God.. I realize that I have a lot to learn. And I think.. I feel like I’m not even supposed to be questioning You right now. And I feel like I’ve had lots of questions for You lately. And I haven’t felt strong. I’ve felt very very weak. And I’ve felt needy. But I’ve felt as though it’s been hard to connect with You lately. I hate that. I feel like I need to rely on You more than ever before. But I feel like it’s so hard. Like.. it’s just different now. I don’t know if I’m detached or disconnected or just focused too much on my own self or issues or what.. but God. We need You. And I know You know that.. but I don’t understand what You are trying to teach us or show us right now. And Lord, my spirit cries out to You. I’m crying out for You.. I’m sorry if it seems stifled or impure or really really broken right now.. but that’s what it is. That’s what we are.. we’re just.. really really really broken. And we don’t know what’s going on. It’s so hard to see right now.. God show us Your goodness and show us that You love us. This stage of waiting.. of not knowing what’s going on.. it’s so difficult. And God.. there’s not always much motivation to keep holding on or to keep going on with life. The pain is.. like a knife in the middle of our souls. As we try to move.. as we try to breathe.. it tears our flesh. It tears the very things that cause us to keep on. It’s like it’s caught in our lung.. ah, God, it hurts to breathe.

Lord.. just help us to keep moving, to keep going. Help us to see You in each and every day. Give us some blessing in every day. Help us to see them. Preserve us, Father God. Show us Your strength, Lord. God, I feel like I am at the end of myself now.. and I’m not certain that things are going to become easier. So please, Father.. wrap Your arms around Your children. Show us Your deep and great love every single day. Father, that’s what we need. There is no way we can survive without it. Lord, catch our tears at night. Wipe them from our faces. Comfort us in our need. Hold our hands and hold our hearts. Help us to know how to reach out to one another, and show us that there is redemption and so much grace to be found when we reach out in our misery. Because Lord, in our misery, there is ministry. And in some ways, that seems so demented and distorted.. but honestly.. God, I think that is Your grace. We know that because of the way You work.. and the way that You show Your love.. You redeem these painful situations. You really do bring good out of them. And I think.. we truly are so afraid God, because we don’t know how much it will hurt. We don’t know how bad You will let things get. We don’t know if there’s a limit.. we don’t know what all You will take from us or when You will stop. And God.. we don’t want to see You as a monster. And I don’t think we do.. But Lord.. we are still so scared. We are scared little children. That’s all we are. And Lord.. humbly, Father God, we come before You on our faces, and God, we beg for You to have mercy on us. Father God, from the bottoms of our hearts we cry out. We know there is nothing in us that deserves any good from You.. but Father God, we do know that You work all things together for good for those who love You. And Father God.. we love You. God, we love You so much. You have given us our breath, You have given us our very being, and everything that has ever caused our hearts to want to beat. Father, continue to give us things to make our heart beat. Let our hearts beat for You. Give us strength, Father God. Give us Your kingdom to look forward to.. Your kingdom on earth, and Your kingdom in heaven. Father God, give us the food we need to get through the day. And forgive us Father God as we forgive the people that wrong us. (We really are all equal..)


I look out the window
The birds are composing
Not a note is out of tune
Or out of place

And God.. that’s what’s so hard to see right now.. that nothing really is out of place. It may seem like it right now.. God, it all seems so messed up and so ugly and our hearts hurt so bad because of it.. But Lord.. Sovereign Lord.. we do know that You are over EVERYTHING and that YOU will make EVERYTHING BEAUTIFUL in Your time.
That is beautiful to me, my Lord. You are so beautiful..
May we strive for that, Lord. May we live to see Your beauty.. May we strive to see the day when You.. when Your presence alone redeems all and makes everything beautiful.

Calm our hearts Lord.. Soothe our hearts.. Heal our broken places.. Let us see a glimmer of Your beauty in this.. Make things beautiful, God.. Redeem our weaknesses, even in this moment Lord.. Heal us.. Save us.. Let Your love be strong..

Your love is strong..

Lord, help us to see that Your kingdom is advancing through this.. None of this will be in vain, God.. Redeem, God. Redeem every situation..

Two things You told me..
That You are strong
And that You love me…

Your love is.. Your love is.. Your love is strong..

Our God in heaven hallowed be
Thy Name above all Names..
Your kingdom come, Your will be done
On earth as it is in heaven
Give us today our daily bread
Forgive us weary sinners
Keep us far from our vices and
Deliver us from these prisons

Father God.. we just need You..


Enter into the cavities of our souls and fill our spirits with Yours..



We need You…



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