God, I need Your mercy..

i just need to be better.

i need to do better.
i need to be a better person.
i need to work harder.
i need to think of others first.
i need to not fight.
i need to know when to back down.
i need to not be snotty and rude. (seems i only ever am to the people i care about the most.. what does that show them? definitely not how much i love them.)
i need to go to bed earlier.
i need to eat more protein.
i need to work out more.
i need time for myself.
but i need to spend way more time serving others.
i need to not look down on people for ANYTHING. absolutely anything at all. i have no reason to look down on anybody because we all are created in the image of God.
i need to love my parents.
i need to never argue with them. (i always seem to think that i know best and that if they just listen to my reasoning, they will understand. well.. this just causes problems. i need to ALWAYS remember that it doesn't really matter who is right and who's wrong in our silly arguments. it's about me respecting them. just because they are my parents that God has blessed me with.)
i need to be humble when it comes to my family. i need to SERVE THEM.
i need to be extremely selfless when it comes to my family. completely and entirely.

gosh.. i have a lot of work to do :/

Lord, help me to grow the more than i ever have through this next year. help me to be better. help me to show my family a new me. for some reason, i have the hardest time when it comes to my family. i love them unlike anybody else in the world, but i have the hardest time showing them that. i feel like things are completely different when i'm with my family. i'm sorry about that, and i'd like to start over. i am completely scared with all of this, because i'm afraid i'm going to fail and suck at this. but Lord.. i know that with Your strength and with Your love and Your patience, i can do this. so please help me to do so. please help me to be very conscious of this every time i'm around them. help me to be conscious of other people's time, Lord. help me help me help me.. i am in desperate need of Your help and Your boundless love.

Help me to show them that love. and act with it every time i'm around them. God, i want these relationships to be the best that i have in my life. please bless them sooo greatly, and show me grace here, even where i don't deserve. please, Father God. Lord, please, i am crying out to You..

please save me, Lord. save these relationships. may You be sooo glorified and honored through each one of them, God. be King of my life in these relationships. i am sorry for where i have fallen. but please be here and stop this now. please come in and resurrect them, Lord God. i give myself and i give these relationships to You to do Your good will in them.

thank You for the blessings You will give, Father God.
i lay these requests humbly at Your feet, knowing i am in need of Your mercy..